In the midst of a very painful loss, I have had the realization that you can never take anything for granted. I had to learn the hard way that all of the things that my previous relationship offered to me, were what I had been searching for my entire life in experiencing authentic love.

I lost my way in my relationship for a minute, and you know what they say, “You can’t unring a bell.” Instead of being completely present and grateful for all that I had and was blessed with, I shifted my focus to thinking about the things that I thought I wanted rather than focusing on the relationship. And is always the case, or another infamous quote, “You don’t know what you’ve got till its gone.” I had let my fear and my limited beliefs rip me out of the present moment, and when I was jolted back into reality by our break-up, it appeared that my fear was transferred to my partner who understandably, let me go to find what he thought, and for a short time, I thought I was looking for. These were things that were based on money, and here comes another quote….”Money IS the root of all evil.” What an unselfish act of love on the part of this man.

I am not perfect, and have never claimed to be. I got lost and wandered off my true path, and I have been working diligently these past few months, in experiencing myself on my own, once again, to seek out my truth in my heart and soul. This life experience and great deal of change is not easy to navigate through for someone like me who is, to say the least, uncomfortable with uncertainty and change. It has been a transformational time for me in that it has given me time to truly see, and understand, that the things that I thought I wanted in my life have absolutely no meaning to me at all. I always maintained that this man’s love and all that he gave to me of himself, his time, and the beautiful life we were creating, were priceless to me. I let him know that all the time, but maybe not enough.

I work on myself every day, with a Life Transitions Coach who teaches me, through her wisdom, and the works of a few highly respected relationship gurus, and I have been spending much more time in meditation and prayer which has been so insightful and healing. I have learned, and will continue to learn, to stay in the present moment. When I begin to navigate from that path, I have learned how to bring myself back to focus and be ever grateful for all that I have.

The only thing that I am able to do at this time is to take care of myself and continue to believe in all that I am…all that I have created. I also love and believe in my work in recovery and in Holistic Health, and I am working on an exciting new project and eager to share it with the world, especially those in recovery…any type of recovery. I have refocused my attention to myself for right now.

In my session with my Coach last night, I was able to verbalize, with sincere conviction, what a wonderful woman I know that I am. Growth! My Coach squealed in delight..”Yes! It’s great to hear you finally realize it!”

The beautiful self discovery is that I am able to navigate this difficult path clean and free of any toxic substances, and acceptance, although it takes some work, and I am a “work in progress.”  I take so much pride in this fact. I have grown and flourished in a metamorphosis of sorts in the past three plus years, and I’m excited to see what is next!

I tell my clients to look for the “gift in any challenge,” It was even more challenging for me to take my own advice because from the moment of the breakup, I realized that I wanted exactly what we had, and nothing more.

The gift in this challenge for me is that I now have had a clear realization about who I am, and what I want in my life, and I’ve been able to work and talk through all of it with my coach/mentor/”soul mother,” who has been guiding me all the way. With her guidance, I have been able to navigate with clarity as to the outcome I desire in my life in my relationship…although I am enjoying the ride as well. I know it was meant to be this way to be able to come to this very important realization for myself.  Life changing.

I am looking for simplicity. I am looking for love that is patient and unconditional. I am looking to be understood right where I am. I am looking for the things in life that are free to enjoy which God has provided for us….a walk in a beautiful park holding hands having meaningful conversation, enjoying a home cooked meal together that we prepare together, concerts on the lawn, and family time with children and grandchildren, enjoying a summer day sitting at the lake listening to music, lots of laughter, and to just be together to spend quality time with each other. To me, that is the richest life I could ever be blessed with, and one day, I will be blessed again. I am holding the space for all possibilities. I believe that with faith, hope, and love, anything is possible. I have been so blessed in my recovery thus far, and I am ever grateful.

Wishing you harmonious health 4 life!

Love and blessings,





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